Davjo_

I, too, made an attempt at PAPYRUSPOWERED

We really need Papyrus up there as a Skeleton.

I didn't even notice at first that we have a new theme as I use the blue one at all times.

True Reset my game and trying doing a "hard mode" Genocide run.

This with dogsong appears.

Goddamnit game, I just want to have the worst experience (and actually try to fight sans) and you throw in the dogsong.

EDIT: wait the game actually ends there and Flowey is mad at you for "taking your time" because you can't skip the "HARD MODE" screen afterwards and have to spend a bit of time.

Oh well.

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Asriel Dreemurr. See it?

It's an anagram for Serial Murderer.

I just noticed something. Spoilers because endgame stuff:

When you get access to the True Lab, the first enemies you encounter give you a variety of choices including ITEM. That one gives you an item called "Bad Memory", which damages you by 1 HP when consumed.

What I am curious about is if it is possible to suicide in the overworld that way with 1 HP left. I sadly have nothing to fight left so I cannot test this. What I do know however is that if you drop it it will "crawl back" to your inventory.

Endgame easter egg spoiler things:

After doing the pacifist ending, don't head out yet. After every room, you can get text messages from Toriel by calling her, there's a couple of them. Also, at the very beginning where you journey started there is Asriel, telling you that someone needs to keep watering the flowers, aswell as some history of the first human (which you named at the beginning, he also seemed ill-minded according to the description he gives you) and that he would rather stay here instead of going to the surface.

relevant picture in doublespoiler, I do believe this fits out of context as a joke (also, F12 doesn't work for steam screenshots somehow):

This is a great game. 

Let's not forget the price of emoticons, they are insane aswell.

It also has one of the best emoticons ever: 

Hello people, I return after taking a break and thinking lots of things over again. I hope things will be going well in the future.

Apologies to my rude post towards Rynjin.

I should most likely take a break off subspuf for now, I clearly have problems expressing myself properly, which leads to some misunderstandings on both parts as I fail to recognize things the proper way aswell.

To Moby below me: I do already play saxophone and occassionaly draw/write. It is something that indeed helps.

That doesn't necessarily sound like a nice thought of me.

I don't really recall you being nice to me ever, so there's that.

Like I've mentioned around a month before, I will be going somewhere to test if I have autism or not at the start of next month.

Edit because I think I should add a few things due to misconceptions:

This is not about me wanting to be a female Snivy or anything, we have been over this problem years ago already. Yes, everyone of you thinks it is dumb, but I am aware of that opinion. I am talking about other problems like social insecurity etc.

Would you guys give me a second chance if I stopped talking about personal problems as frequent (read: will post probably once in a blue moon, if at all) and if I started to contribute to the community more, lending a hand and so on? I am aware that this just proves the fact that I am an "insecure teenager who needs to gets his shit done" and who has no idea how to do social interaction, but I just don't want to let this thread end like the one that almost got me banned before 2 years ago.

I guess I will try my best to be not negative here anymore.

​I seem to be self-loathing for others, but it is probably connected to me being completely selfless aswell. I would give up everything for others if needed.

I don't intend on only complaining on TIAM about my life, I post in a variety of other threads aswell and don't complain there, even trying to contribute to the conversation. You adding an emote to that "quoted part" of yours makes it seem like I am shitposting intentionally, but most of my posts don't even have emotes.

I tried being social, but I don't see a reason to suddenly start drinking until I black out or have to vomit. This is "being social" for german standards, it seems, I do not believe this is how social interaction works though. I can keep the Snivy stuff to myself nowadays, I do not seek help for this specifically, but for other problems for which I know you guys have experience with, like what friendship really is, even if the question sounds dumb.

I tried to make this post look normal, but people have the habit of instantly calling me a shitposter or attention whore, so your reaction seems to be natural to me.

I am able to talk of plenty of other things, those few achievements I have made, my imaginary stories or pictures I have drawn, but no one is interested in those, are you? I did post some things in other threads that aren't main TIAM, but people don't bother looking there.

Me.

I just can't fucking bear it anymore. I try my best every day to keep myself and others up, and it just ends with myself falling more into the vicious cycle of depression because I fail at being helpful and down myself even more. My calm demeanor only can take so much.

You guys know how this bollocks started, I told everyone that I wanted to be a specific imaginary being and I immediately got called out for shitposting. If it were shitposting then, how comes I still want to be said imaginary being today? I seriously think it's something to do with my mentality, me rather staying in my own mind instead of sharing it with others. I thought sharing my thoughts and some of my dreams with you guys would help make myself more open to others. It did, to some degree, but that turned out to be the end of my social life, IRL completely and partially on the internet, despite me never mentioning this Snivy crap in reallife ever.

I cannot grasp the concept of my presence being so tiring to most people I talk to to the point of me being permanently harrassed or simply ignored.. Am I doing something wrong? And if so, how can I improve? "Fuck off" is not much of a help to me, it just leads to me seperating myself from other people more and more. There are only a handful of people I actually talk to nowadays (Medic for example, if you remember her), but that's because I've built trust with those people before crap went downhill even further.

Yes, I refused most of your advice in the past, but that is because I am too introverted. I do believe I have heavy social anxiety, since I try my best to get out of anyone's way IRL aswell as not wanting to do stuff with other people.

I'm too moronic for suicide, and my life is determined to be a mental punching bag for others anyway, so it doesn't seem that much changed anyway. I don't see myself in the future anywhere either since life is crap and I am always out of luck. I've had many opportunities, but failed to take any of them.

Those few friends I bother talking to closely tell me that I should stop making myself look so bad and that I happen to be an amazing friend, but the majority seems to be on the opposite side. I try my best to support everyone, both people I like talking to and even people I hate, but supporting either leads to them disliking me more.

I don't get much support from my family as I have mentioned in the past, for example when I told them that I wanted to be a girl I only got taunted for it to the point that I said it was a joke. I try to avoid them most of the time aswell, spending most of my day in my lonely room.

I doubt that I will get a mental breakdown anytime soon since my mind already seems to have taken on a lot of problems, from strangers being faggots and impersonating me, classmates abusing my mentality and making fun of it  to close friends parting ways because of a mistake.

I will just ask for one thing, since I am most probably not welcome here anymore, and if, a second (or third for some) chance would be appreciated, but in the sense of starting over, without being negative towards me from the beginning.

I just want clarity.

I've been suggested that I should make a thread about apparently serious issues about myself and with the problems I have interacting with others and the community.

Anyone has an idea of how to make a thread like that (so TIAM doesn't get bothered by my stuff) that doesn't look like I'm craving for attention? I do believe I leave this impression with every post I make despite it not being my intention. Then again, my effect on things is never my intention most of the time, it seems.

​I'm probably the most vague person ever, but let's just say that I have made a lot of bad experiences with "friends" in the past few weeks. I can't grasp the concept of friendship that well, you see.

I would say something along the lines of me being a moron, but people tell me to stop making myself look so bad.

Oh, I'm sure I didn't order shitpost™.

What are friends?

Wait, does this mean you got hijacked, Wicket?

Any advice on that then?

I legitimately bought video making programs from steam though, when the one I wanted was like 33% off :c

Does anyone know good programs on Steam to make good music with?

something something kingdom hearts and unboxing crates (tf2 crates or csgo cases)

Yes, those models exist somewhere.

Hearing from someone that I'm normal and sane probably means that you should check on your own sanity (jk lol).

I know that I am definately not normal (I want to be a female Snivy afterall, as you guys know) and possibly insane due to that, but I know how to keep a calm demeanor. I try my best to be friendly and honest towards people, although my honesty tends to turn people hostile towards me, both IRL and on Steam.

A steamfriend of mine is being salty again.

Short wall of text (with a link for apparently 23 pages of chatlog for some reason) incoming.

02:20 - Cherri: read this
02:20 - Cherri: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1wd3PUs1p71mK8JhXfnkNmpKoCyMrTFypYm0x6SL00FI/edit?usp=sharing
02:23 - Davjo: That is a lot of text
02:23 - Cherri: read it
02:23 - Cherri: please
02:24 - Davjo: It is kind of true that you apparently have tons of relationships though
02:24 - Cherri: -w-
02:24 - Davjo: It does not sound unreal of Sym that you would have ditched that guy 15 times
02:24 - Cherri: Tha'ts not true
02:24 - Davjo: It is :s
02:24 - Cherri: It's not
02:24 - Cherri: Know what?
02:24 - Cherri: Goodbye
02:24 - Davjo: wot
02:24 - Cherri: I've been single
02:24 - Cherri: adn those arent' real relationship
02:24 - Cherri: *and
02:24 - Cherri: Alot fo tehma re RP
02:24 - Cherri: *of them are
02:24 - Davjo: You make every relationship sound like a relationship
02:24 - Cherri: Ugh
02:24 - Cherri: So that makes him right?
02:25 - Davjo: Remember when you tried to hit on me?
02:25 - Cherri: Wow
02:25 - Davjo: I never implied that
02:25 - Cherri: Goobye man
02:25 - Cherri: *goodbye
02:25 - Cherri: Davjo
02:25 - Cherri: You never have seen all ym relaitonships?
02:25 - Cherri: *my
02:25 - Cherri: How can you say?
02:25 - Davjo: I have seen a lot of them.
02:25 - Cherri: BUllshit
02:25 - Davjo: You told me about a lot of them.
02:26 - Cherri: Like?
02:26 - Davjo: You are always suicidal
02:26 - Cherri: :/
02:26 - Davjo: It is bothering for everyone, no offense
02:26 - Davjo: You should take things with a grain of salt
02:26 - Cherri: THere is offense
02:27 - Davjo: You tend to overexaggerate a lot
02:27 - Cherri: Like you?
02:27 - Cherri: I enver left him 15+ times
02:27 - Davjo: When did I overexaggerate on something
02:27 - Cherri: if you read
02:27 - Davjo: I said that it does not sound unreal
02:27 - Davjo: I didn't say it was right
02:27 - Cherri: It does sound unreal
02:27 - Davjo: Not to me
02:27 - Cherri: wanna know how?
02:27 - Cherri: Earlier in the conversation
02:27 - Cherri: He said I never went back to him
02:27 - Cherri: And btw
02:28 - Cherri: Who are you to say?
02:28 - Cherri: You're Asexual
02:28 - Davjo: Didn't know that makes me unable to judge
02:28 - Davjo: A friend of mine has relationships as frequent as you
02:28 - Cherri: COnsidering the fact oyu dont' know anythign aobut ym life
02:28 - Cherri: And again
02:28 - Davjo: I repeat, you tell me a lot about it
02:28 - Cherri: I've been signel for a long while
02:28 - Cherri: -w-
02:28 - Cherri: See my point?
02:28 - Cherri: *single
02:29 - Cherri: If I have
02:29 - Cherri: You'd know their name
02:29 - Cherri: *names
02:29 - Davjo: I don't see a reason to remember names like those
02:29 - Cherri: Proves my point -w-
02:29 - Cherri: Look
02:29 - Cherri: I get it
02:29 - Davjo: How comes
02:29 - Cherri: you agree with the things they did
02:30 - Davjo: Not all things
02:30 - Cherri: You think it's fine to lie to people
02:30 - Cherri: ANd I am no slut
02:30 - Davjo: I am honesty in person lol
02:30 - Cherri: YOu agree to that
02:30 - Davjo: I never said you are
02:30 - Davjo: I could now say aswell that this proves my points
02:30 - Cherri: -w-
02:31 - Cherri is now Offline.

 

Not sure if I should feel sad or glad that this person removed and blocked me for something as simple as this short chat.